I said something like this long ago. But I can't reconcile the person I would like to be to the person that I truly am.

Jumped into water that felt like ice today. Managed to gasp my way to some rocks off shore. Shivered there while I tried to feel some wonder of being-alive.
What if the remedy to change a heart is not as simple as beautiful places and adrenaline rushes.

Humility and patience have always been my worst virtues. And I'm slowly getting very tired.